miss_zanna

I've moved. Period.
My new link? I won't disclose here.
Sorry for the inconvenience.

♥

Maybe it's self-esteem, or the lack of confidence. Maybe the fear or falling, or maybe I'm just shy.
I'm speechless around you. My tongue's tied and I doubt I'll ever untangle it on time to talk to you.
So I shall just follow the flow since you decide to do that too. (:
I'm sick again and gosh, it's irritating.
Went to doctor and he asked me to return 1 month later to take some blood test.
He said I may be diagnosed with Anemia.
Oh wells, on a brighter note, it's Saturday, weekends. 
One of the few reasons why I'm a happy lady today. (:

Another is despite being sick, I manage to realize who actually cares and I really appreciate it. <3
Others? I shall keep to myself. :P

I doubt I can never not blog for the time being.
During Malay Lit class, I stoned. I really zone out.
I end up asking IBZ, "why does all my lit class have to suck? like since sec 4."
And instead of answering me, he actually agreed. Not really what I thought he'd do. ):

& when I actually ask for toilet break, I swear I felt as if I didn't wanna come back, AT ALL.
It was so dead that I can't help but just daydream and not listen. Or maybe it's just me.
There's NOTHING to look forward for but just constant boredom and stoning time.

At least last time if I were to do that, IBZ will make sure I'm on Planet Earth. Or at least make sure that I'm okay. :/

I miss TSF and IBZ ttm. Sucky like what. ):
I guess I depended on them a little too much to be happy in Lit classes(?)

Oh well, I've accepted the fact that stoning in Malay Lit is gonna be normal for the next 2 years. (x

I think I'm going MIA for awhile after this update.

I came to realize remembered that what we want won't be what we'll actually get.
What we thought could happen might eventually never happen.

& my friends advised me to stay away but i didn't want to.
cause your sincerity was something I hang on to every time I lose faith.
but now, i stopped hoping and believing. i'd rather stay emotionless.

just know that I never regret getting to know you. thankyou.

I'm just lost for words.
Screwed Chem CA.

& I'm in a dilemma. 

Today just isn't a fine day.

I have nonono mood.

School obviously sucks and I don't know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I'm in TPJC.
Maybe I should have gone to TP or or SRJC?
I'm nowhere near smart as compared to the others in school.
But here I am, mugging my ass off with them like as if it'd make a big difference.

I miss breaking down in front of Daryl.
I miss being suan by Ismail in every lesson.
I miss talking and bitching to Jon Ho.
I miss getting pissed at Hakim's remarks.
I miss my girls, JES and Choristers.

If given a choice, I'd let Ismail suan me all day, chase Daryl until I'm out of breath, talk to JonHo endlessly, let Hakim say whatever he wants and hug all my girls as tight as possible and never let go. That's how I need them all right now. ):

I'm not emotionally stable and not having them to support me after doing that  for years make me feel vulnerable.
Suddenly, finding another Daryl seems impossible to do.
No one can stand my rants for four years and counting as much as Daryl does and gosh, he made me realize, he's just awesome. ):

...all i can do is cry.

It's amazing how he could make her so happy and then crush her so fast.
How he could plant a smile on her face so easily then,
And now, just make her cry non-stop hoping he'd just believe in hope.

She tried to make him believe that she can accept.
But he denied her and crushed her heart. </3

She thought he trusted her, so why not trust her when she ask him to believe?

I'm back from a 3d2n camp which was actually not as bad. I ♥ 10S25. (:

Nadiah was an awesome partner the whole way through camp la!
I hear her rant about missing him and she hears me crap about how cute people are.
We wake up, eat, rant, get tired, bathe, sleep and do everything else together. xD
My point is she just entertain me during the whole camp.
Really loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee her. :D

Get to know Marcus and Jervin better which was awesome.
Cause they're awesomely entertaining fun people to talk to. :D

Basically, I'm lazy to type out word for word what happened.
Maybe my life is dull but this camp was one of the best camp I've attended so far.
10S25 is awesome and so was our CF-s, Faiq & Xuan Jie. (:

& finally, we had a real conversation on the 2nd day.